Flobots If I lyrics

If I by Flobots

If I lyrics

If I hadn�t been a quiet introspective kid
If I hadn�t been a nerd wouldn�t have met with him
If we hadn�t observed we be the best of friends
That preferred the spoken word to the toke and binge
If momma hadn�t died when I was young
Would me and sis have been so tight from jump
If dad had not lost his mind to a disease
Would I be up here askin ya�ll to notice me

In the dark times didn�t know where the path went
I was close to the edge like Grand Master Flash said
It was the hands of my friends who held me back

Yes
Without them I�d MJ keep slide�n backwards
Or be a hypocrite like some others have been
If that and the other hadn�t happened
I don�t know that I�d be Brer Rabbit
Askin how many ifs between hero and has-been?

If I had only known that I would be a lamb to the slaughter
now I know

If I hadn�t grown up in the 80�s
Experiencing the various things that made me
Would I still be standing center stage
Trying to innovate new ways to demonstrate
If mommy daddy hadn�t turned off Mork and Mindy
To inform us divorce was pending
Would him and me have spent these 23 years in a frenzy
Moving back and forth with such forceful energy
I remember when I was a little baby
Lying there alone on my pillow casing
Upset already I could feel the aging
The urge to return was debilitating
And maybe I�m still afraid and need to
Cry a little harder for the world of play things
Stop looking back on these silly day dreams
Sing along with me if you feel the same way

If I had known what awaited was unplanned
If I had known the blade was in a loved one�s hand
If I had known of the possible injury
If I had known the altar was meant for me
Now I know nobody can predict events
Now I know there�s cracks in the picket fence
Now I know that something else can exist
Now I know a life can be built from this
If I had known emotions would still remain
If I had known that time wouldn�t heal the pain
If I had known the intent of the injury
If I had known the altar wasn�t meant for me
Now I know there�s treasure hidden in these scars
Now I know there�s presence in an empty yard
Now I know what it took for me to survive
Now I know where to go to become alive